Yeah, it's tough that first day.
To be fair, I hate getting out of bed most days, but today was especially difficult. Part of it was the overwhelming nature of things- so much to do, so little time and money to get them done. It was like, "If I stay in bed, I prolong having to start this new chapter. I'm excited about it, but scared, too. And the bed is comfy and warm, the world is cold and painful."
So I turned on the Today Show. Apparently, there are rumors Ryan Seacrest will replace Matt Lauer on the Today Show. Also, Seacrest is responsible for the Kardashians shows- this is disappointing. Eventually, I grow bored with this, and start psyching myself up for starting to live. Because I realize if I don't get out of bed today- if I do nothing today- I set a precedent. And it would be a bad one.
So, I get up, I get my daughter who's home her breakfast, I work out, I wrote on the blog. I watch Justice League cartoons. After lunch, my wife Kristin gets back from subbing in our oldest daughter's class. We finish watching Elizabethtown- great movie about death and getting fired and road trips. Then I begin looking into more jobs. Alternative certification to teach is harder than I thought (cursed again by a Speech Communications degree). Filled out an application for Academic Advisor at A&M- was immediately told I was not qualified. Can't start subbing for at least a week, so no point in doing any legwork there.
Met with my friend Eric- we're reading the Screwtape Letters together. We didn't talk about that this week, he simply let me vent. I appreciate Eric.
Got some Easter stuff for the kids from Walmart- and a part to fix a runny toilet. Then fixed said toilet. See, I'm not completely useless.
I decided I need to take all this free time I now have that I wanted and work on that book I've wanted to get published. It's called "A Church Walks Into Bar" and it's about our church, the Gate, that meets at Hurricane Harry's. Each chapter is the punchline to the joke title, and it's about the cool and difficult things that happen in a church like ours. I figure I can finish it up in a week, have it published by the end of the month and on the bestseller's list by June. That's realistic, right?
Had our church small group at our house. It's called Conversations and has more rabbit trails than a forest- but it's good, life affirming stuff. Even the randomness.
We've put the kids to bed, and soon I'll put me to bed. Wait, there's a phone call. One of the guys from church works with a Sound Engineering Company, and they might be able to find something for me, temporarily at least. Hmmm.
Perhaps tomorrow the getting up will be easier.
Especially if there's nothing good on the Today Show.
I realize that money is much more necessary in adult life when your parents are no longer supporting you, but always continue to have faith. The job you had wasn't something you were proud of, so the way I see it, God has something much better planned for you. Keep living one day at a time. After all, there's a very true saying that depression is a result of living in the past and anxiety is a result of living in the future. But the Bible says each day has enough troubles of its own. Try to live in the present (which it seems you're doing), and fight the battles as they come. In the end, always rely on God; He'll never give you more than you can handle.
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