DAY SIXTY: You Can't Always Get What You Want?

The day I interviewed for the position I didn't get, the song "You Can't Always Get What You Want" by the Rolling Stones was playing when I drove up.  I tried really hard to not see that symbolism.

I don't recall what song was playing today as I drove up for the Special Ed position at Consol.  Actually, it was four positions- two Adaptive Behavior and two Life Skills (one was at the new High School).  But I was thinking when they asked me why I wanted a special ed class position, "Why do I want a special ed class position?"  I'd not applied for it, and I was a little uncomfortable with it, but yeah, I was here because I needed a job.  And it was an aide position, which I did want.

I finished the interview, and thought about the interview tomorrow- an elementary aide position.  I recalled this- and my so-called fear of small children.  Later on in the day, I got called for a third interview- for an Autism class at College Hills Elementary.  Where Kristin did her student teaching.

I noticed a pattern- I wanted normal ed aide positions in High Schools.  I had one chance in High School, but not normal ed.  I'm not getting what I wanted.

But then, what I really wanted was a job in education- and the fact that in two days I will have interviewed for six positions seemed really cool.

Perhaps things happen not just as we planned them- perhaps God is telling me to be open to special ed.  And small children hugging me.

Kristin's interview also went well, but again, we're not getting hopes up.  It seems her principal from Cypress Grove had already been talked to, and that is a good thing for many reasons.  It's also strange to think that she had been resistant to Bryan, yet she seemed to be very interested.

I am reminded of Psalm 37:3-6

Trust in the Lord and do good;
    dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.

 Commit your way to the Lord;
    trust in him and he will do this:
 He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,     your vindication like the noonday sun.

Perhaps God is changing our desires to be His, and then He will grant them.  Perhaps this is another test.  Either way, this time, we trust in God, not the job interviews.